why i am afraid to use english in public

Everybody know what the english. english was the important english.Everyone can speak english and english used everywhere.I'm afraid to use english in public because my english very bad and when i speak english in public they laugh me.Then,when we use english to speak many mistake in english.The people think speak english we proud speak and think i clever to speak english.My language english was not good compare the people english.After that,i speak english the people looked me different because in Malaysian wide apart the people speak english.I afraid the people listen my speaking incur curse.In my my family never speak english and i make not used speak english.I'm not praktical speak english.Sometime i don't understand what mean language and afraid wrong english.All my friends speak malay and they not interested speak english.I will feel awkward when talking language inggeris.the people will think i'm want proud foreign language of own language.I'm shy to face with public when speak in language English.